#190 ~ Summer's Birthday 2011

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Appropriately, Summer's birthday was celebrated at the beach.





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First one in, last one out the door.




Important thing was we surprised Summer (who refuses to admit it) and she got what she wanted. Win.

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Here, the official drink of the day. Good-bye Zady. Maher's in town. :'(


It was a nice day, it wasn't too hot, we didn't have to squint all that much, the beach crowd was mellow, and I didn't lose my beloved necklace (because I had already lost it on our last beach trip. -I sob here-).

But the highlight of my day was trying to face my fear of jumping/diving into the water. I was so scared my legs were jelly, I was shaking, my hands and feet were ice-cold, and I was having a panic attack. My friends egging me on helped and didn't help at the same time. That's a new feeling: being completely afraid. The scariest part was just getting over the ledge. I feared so many things: slipping and hitting my head, drowning, not being able to breathe properly, dying, DYING. 

But I wanted to conquer it.

In the end, I only managed to drop into the water twice; I never mustered enough courage to let loose, but it was still an accomplishment. The most important thing was that I did it. I enjoyed the confidence I had as soon as I hit the water because I didn't panic: I just swam up to the surface, completely confident and trusting the water and keeping myself together. Only 3 years ago, I didn't know how to swim.

And this was a much-needed win after a few weeks of feeling off, dipping into some really deep lows.

The world awaits. 

Comments

  1. DentographerJuly 10, 2011 at 7:41 PM

    I thought ur biggest fear was going to the dentist, Joe!
    Now I have to re-assort the "how many things do u know about Joe diana Tamano"!

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  2. nessreenJuly 11, 2011 at 5:16 AM

    Hahaha! It is! Swimming is one of my mild fears! Imagine what would happen to me if I were to go to the dentist's! *dies now*

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