Ordinary, Love.

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What makes you so special when you're in love? 

Whatever it is you're feeling isn't the first time EVER it has happened to someone in this world, even though you think it's so. You know, you get that really special feeling where you can't stop smiling when you look out the window. And you bury your face into your pillow every morning; ah, life is beautiful, la di da.

"No, THIS is different. THIS is just amazing."

People in love hear a song (about being in love) and they nod their heads and sing along to it and wonder in amazement how other people could so accurately describe the things they are going through, the way they feel about another person, at that very moment. Wow, it's crazy. I could've written this song.

The truth is, when you are in love, you DON'T become special. You become ordinary. You become like every other person in love. 


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Hurt must be the B-side, then. People you don't love can't hurt you.

The things that hurt me all come from people I love. Maybe because of my passive agressive nature, or maybe because I just don't want the people I love to change their personalities on account of they do things that hurt me, I am never comfortable telling people that they are, in fact, hurting me, with the words they say or the things they do.

Maybe I also just love the almost romantic tragedy of my loved ones not really knowing who I am, if they don't know the things that would hurt me.

I love being with someone. Who doesn't? It's nice to be able to share things with someone who cares about you, who shares the things you like or dislike, and respects the things that make you different from them. It's nice to have someone to talk to about your day, to hear things that will be done in your name, to make plans with another person to reach a common goal, to know that you are good for each other and that you make each other better people just by being together.

But it is in being alone that I am inspired to be more creative, to look for things that would aid in my goal to become different and unique, to dig deep into the emotional well and go on forever about the things that I yearn for, the things I aspire to be, the people I long to reach. 

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