Impulse

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I need a little help with this one. I want a smartphone. So what's the best smartphone for a not-so-smart-phoner?

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Earlier tonight, Summer and I went to look at Guitar Hero accessories to get for her sister on her birthday. As chance would have it, the mobile phone shop was next to the game shop. There, I felt a little outdated. All these new phones. Instead of moving forward, I have actually moved back.

And so, I decided I would buy a smartphone. I feel old enough as it is. I don't need to feel.. ignorant.

Probably the best decision I've made this year is not buying the latest smartphone available on the spot. Even though I feel like shit right now. I realize I don't really need to buy a new phone, and an expensive one at that, but since I can, why shouldn't I?

It embarrasses me that I am more concerned about giving in to a very bad impulse to spend my money when I know there are other more important things I can spend it on, when I know there is so much more going on around me that I can help with.

It embarrasses me even more that after hours of convincing myself not to buy a phone after all, that it is unnecessary, irrational and possibly very stupid, I know myself, and chances are, I'll go tomorrow anyway, at 7pm after work, to look at what else is there and spend that fucking money.

It's not easy. I'm trying to change, but it's not easy at all.

There is a very small chance that I will just shut the fuck up about it already and keep my money.

There is also a chance that I might just break down and drink Pepsi. After all, I can't curb all my impulses at once.

In simple words, fuck it.

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